Love...

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Apparently, it has become quite apparent that my life is lacking in the love department, as there was a COT intervention of sorts tonight. After watching the Ravens lose to the Steeler's (sad! There will be no Bird Bowl this year.), H, T, and A decided it would be a good idea to see who they could possibly set me up with. The results were not good. Which probably means that we all need to meet new people. But, I digress...


My friends have always been semi-baffled by my love life. 1-because I don't talk about it, and 2-because it's never really been high on my list of priorities. I just turned 25. I still can't decide what I want to be when I grow up, so why should I worry about getting married? I strongly believe that I'll find whoever I'm supposed to be with when the time is right. And while there is an insane amount of pressure to get married and have babies from my hometown and certain people who live there (which I think is ridiculous and deserves an entire separate post), I am perfectly content with my single life. I can go where I want to, when I want to. I can travel whenever I want, and spend money on whatever I want. And I am extremely fortunate to have so many amazing people in my life to share all my adventures with. Loneliness happens, but it happens for everyone, even if you are married.


I am also a firm believer in building a complete, individual life before combining it with someone else's. Not only do I think it makes for much more successful relationships, but I think it makes for a happier existence in itself. I am not the same person I was when I graduated from high school. I am more confident and I know who I am as a person. And it took me immersing myself in new adventures and opportunities for me to discover that, something I don't think is as easy when you have other people and influences in your life to consider.
In terms of love, I am definitely an idealist. I want the romantic, sweep-you-off-the-feet, knew after the first date I was going to marry them kind of love. But, I also know that sometimes it takes a while for the fireworks to start sparking. And so far, I haven't found one or the other. And while some may think that I have high standards, I'm not at the point where I feel the need to settle, and don't think I'll ever get there.


Basically, what I'm trying to say is that I'm happy. I think my life is headed where it's supposed to and I'm just trying to enjoy the ride. If it comes to that point, I will encourage my friends to set me up with anyone and everyone and I will succumb to the online dating phenomenon. For now, though, there isn't any worry.